last working day -> officially

It was my last day of working at BTM for more than a year

Are you going to ask me '' do you feel a little bit sentimental for leaving?  

hmmm....if i say no then i must be heartless. 

before leaving , i tried to do all my work perfectly but it's lot of work so ending up, only done 98% of my work.

After days and weeks of having peaceful mind, i realize that it's worthless for holding onto something that is impossible.Life is short ,i just want to experience something different from what i have been encountered. I'm trying to start creating new or to beautify my life that i tend to neglect .

oh ya, before i left the company, i bought thx and goodbye present to my colleagues and bosses. some of my friends , keep asking me why? ....for me it is an appreciation for they have done for me...... love your hater, enemy ,............

i will always treasure every memories i'd gone through ; no matter bitter or sweet. If i preferred to keep the sweet and delete all the bitter memories then i would never treasure or learn a great lesson from it  .Candidly, i just want to balance between bitter and sweet .

Mending

trying to mend a cloth but i'm not good in mending ......!! thus, i have make myself clear, let it be and never spoilt it as it need to mend especially person like me not good in mending may end up spoiling the quality of the cloth..........Someday, i would know how to mend perfectly without other interupt or help!!!

You ^.^ = > reminiscence

With you , it 's different..... different..... different ....You are the only one.....i've never encounter this kind of ......different  before!!!!.......but you changed it or i changed it? or both of us .....causing it to be .....now it's REMINISCENCE

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Appreciate

Most people never appreciate what they have until someday they start to lose it.when you have everything you want you would tend to have the kind of a thought or feeling that it wont leave you and would stay with you forever .oh ya, cant deny that temptation is hard to resist.that is way , second chance comes to play it roles .most human will only regret when they start losing it and then begging for mercy .some people just give second chance because they scare to lose it's comfort zone/a shoulder to cry on or start over again.there is no such weak people only if they choose to become.it always depend on one's mentality.losing does hurt but it would be sour someday.some may regret by suicide or self torture if they fail to get it back.it is called one of the journey of the path of life

BYE kak yuri

After 3 years working in Malaysia ,...finally she back to Indonesia

hmmmm i have been waiting for her to call me( she promises to call me once she arrives home) but yet i'm still waiting

hmmm,...wondering whether she forgets me already?

....it doesnt really matter anymore ...as long as she is happy and safe ,it already sufficient

yesteryear Nightmare by chasing unchaseable memory

i asked mr time a few question '' can you go back to 1 year ago??''
he answered '' why ? tell me why you want to go back ??? do you really miss those days??''
i replied '' some of it ....and ..i...i..i..just want to appreciate those days .............i'm full of regret and guilty''
he told me '' you should face it or correct it, not keep asking me of a favor that it is impossible''
he continued his speech '' by the way , i'm not time traveller ...even i manage to move my  clock's wheels to move backward ...do you think you wont do the same mistake or same things??'''



Two invisible boxes

I try to hide two invisible boxes. one is emptiness and the other is sadness .Have been trying to hide the boxes but the more I want to hide the more visible it becomes .i use all my effort to vanish the two invisible boxes by looking up to my 100 plus of keys .Sorry to know that non of the keys that are able to varnish the 2 boxes .

Celebrating friends' birthday at newway from 7:30 to around 00:00

Only realize that here got poker and majung cards...i didnt bet.... only took the picture of it as it because i was quite amaze. 

Majong Card

Poker card

Hide and seek

I never like to play hide and seek game.when i was in primary school i used to hide and others seek.During that time i played the game almost every weekdays .it was my nightmare and frightened to death.honestly, i scared to go to school.i kept asking God , why should i have to played in hiding role instead seeking roles? could someone stop hide and seek game? Could anyone helps me?.Hmmmm... After praying for years .the game finally over once i turned 11.unluckily, the game starts again after months graduated from degree, this time is different because i'm the one who seek.i have been seeking for more than 5 months.hide = frightened( afraid to be found and the consequence of getting caught) as for seek role = tired, lost and disappointed.the advantage for playing seek role(controller of the game) is you can stop playing whereas hide role cant.