Hide and seek

I never like to play hide and seek game.when i was in primary school i used to hide and others seek.During that time i played the game almost every weekdays .it was my nightmare and frightened to death.honestly, i scared to go to school.i kept asking God , why should i have to played in hiding role instead seeking roles? could someone stop hide and seek game? Could anyone helps me?.Hmmmm... After praying for years .the game finally over once i turned 11.unluckily, the game starts again after months graduated from degree, this time is different because i'm the one who seek.i have been seeking for more than 5 months.hide = frightened( afraid to be found and the consequence of getting caught) as for seek role = tired, lost and disappointed.the advantage for playing seek role(controller of the game) is you can stop playing whereas hide role cant.