Appreciate

Most people never appreciate what they have until someday they start to lose it.when you have everything you want you would tend to have the kind of a thought or feeling that it wont leave you and would stay with you forever .oh ya, cant deny that temptation is hard to resist.that is way , second chance comes to play it roles .most human will only regret when they start losing it and then begging for mercy .some people just give second chance because they scare to lose it's comfort zone/a shoulder to cry on or start over again.there is no such weak people only if they choose to become.it always depend on one's mentality.losing does hurt but it would be sour someday.some may regret by suicide or self torture if they fail to get it back.it is called one of the journey of the path of life

BYE kak yuri

After 3 years working in Malaysia ,...finally she back to Indonesia

hmmmm i have been waiting for her to call me( she promises to call me once she arrives home) but yet i'm still waiting

hmmm,...wondering whether she forgets me already?

....it doesnt really matter anymore ...as long as she is happy and safe ,it already sufficient

yesteryear Nightmare by chasing unchaseable memory

i asked mr time a few question '' can you go back to 1 year ago??''
he answered '' why ? tell me why you want to go back ??? do you really miss those days??''
i replied '' some of it ....and ..i...i..i..just want to appreciate those days .............i'm full of regret and guilty''
he told me '' you should face it or correct it, not keep asking me of a favor that it is impossible''
he continued his speech '' by the way , i'm not time traveller ...even i manage to move my  clock's wheels to move backward ...do you think you wont do the same mistake or same things??'''



Two invisible boxes

I try to hide two invisible boxes. one is emptiness and the other is sadness .Have been trying to hide the boxes but the more I want to hide the more visible it becomes .i use all my effort to vanish the two invisible boxes by looking up to my 100 plus of keys .Sorry to know that non of the keys that are able to varnish the 2 boxes .

Celebrating friends' birthday at newway from 7:30 to around 00:00

Only realize that here got poker and majung cards...i didnt bet.... only took the picture of it as it because i was quite amaze. 

Majong Card

Poker card

Hide and seek

I never like to play hide and seek game.when i was in primary school i used to hide and others seek.During that time i played the game almost every weekdays .it was my nightmare and frightened to death.honestly, i scared to go to school.i kept asking God , why should i have to played in hiding role instead seeking roles? could someone stop hide and seek game? Could anyone helps me?.Hmmmm... After praying for years .the game finally over once i turned 11.unluckily, the game starts again after months graduated from degree, this time is different because i'm the one who seek.i have been seeking for more than 5 months.hide = frightened( afraid to be found and the consequence of getting caught) as for seek role = tired, lost and disappointed.the advantage for playing seek role(controller of the game) is you can stop playing whereas hide role cant.

''Zhu Jianqiang" = Strong-willed Pig

i was touched when i read the news and .... it reminded me one of my hamster , ham ham's great grandson, who was born as healthy hamster but sadly, after some days ,His mom( ham ham' grandaughter) ate his left hand and her rest of her babies to death.. I really dont really understand why she ate his son's hand and let he lives? . Everytimes, when i looked the disable hamster, i feel pity toward the hamster and at the same time, it gave me encouragement to be more stronger.He is really very strong, and learnt to walk, eat with one hand, climb ,........

back to the topic of pig.

She,Zhu Jianqiang was born disabled/handicapped (with only two front legs , you can see it in the photo below)

She was supposed being dumpped for being disabled but the kind-hearted owner refused to do so when his wife asked him . Mr Wong has did more than what a pet owner should have done!! .

 He said: "I trained her for a while each day. After 30 days she can now walk upside down quite well''.He was being offerd a large sum for the Pig but he refused to sell.His undying love and care toward the pig has made me feel that in this world there is still got people who is kind- hearted person.

Candidly ,after i read  this true story , i was imaging what i will do if i were the pig??
am i going to give up? am i that strong?? . At first thought, i was hmm....if i were the pig, i may just give up on life such as refuse to eat and bla bla...because i  may be eaten by human as pig is one the favourite eating pigs meat/preys upon human.if i learnt to live , the next day i may brutal killed by slaughter....hmmmm think too much already!.I believe there must be a reason why God created the pig...........

she has proved to us that no matter how life is so difficult or what is her upcoming obstacle she will face,  no one even animals should ever give up on ourselves!!!. Last but not least,every living creature should be given the chance to live.!!

Let bygones be bygones

15 years of anger and hatred inside me has had  finally begones...........Forgiveness breaks the wall of hatred and anger ,will eventually heal the pain .

The only way is to break the walls or walk through the walls

SEARCHING for A Place called forgetting self - legends

I've lived through a million dreams 

dreams are just dreams that will only remain as dreams

 some dreams are sweet but some dreams are bitter

feel breathless like drowning once i think of my bitter legends 

 all i can do is to search and search 

Searching for a place called forgetting self- legends

in order to stop bitter legends get me devour