Hide and seek

I never like to play hide and seek game.when i was in primary school i used to hide and others seek.During that time i played the game almost every weekdays .it was my nightmare and frightened to death.honestly, i scared to go to school.i kept asking God , why should i have to played in hiding role instead seeking roles? could someone stop hide and seek game? Could anyone helps me?.Hmmmm... After praying for years .the game finally over once i turned 11.unluckily, the game starts again after months graduated from degree, this time is different because i'm the one who seek.i have been seeking for more than 5 months.hide = frightened( afraid to be found and the consequence of getting caught) as for seek role = tired, lost and disappointed.the advantage for playing seek role(controller of the game) is you can stop playing whereas hide role cant.

''Zhu Jianqiang" = Strong-willed Pig

i was touched when i read the news and .... it reminded me one of my hamster , ham ham's great grandson, who was born as healthy hamster but sadly, after some days ,His mom( ham ham' grandaughter) ate his left hand and her rest of her babies to death.. I really dont really understand why she ate his son's hand and let he lives? . Everytimes, when i looked the disable hamster, i feel pity toward the hamster and at the same time, it gave me encouragement to be more stronger.He is really very strong, and learnt to walk, eat with one hand, climb ,........

back to the topic of pig.

She,Zhu Jianqiang was born disabled/handicapped (with only two front legs , you can see it in the photo below)

She was supposed being dumpped for being disabled but the kind-hearted owner refused to do so when his wife asked him . Mr Wong has did more than what a pet owner should have done!! .

 He said: "I trained her for a while each day. After 30 days she can now walk upside down quite well''.He was being offerd a large sum for the Pig but he refused to sell.His undying love and care toward the pig has made me feel that in this world there is still got people who is kind- hearted person.

Candidly ,after i read  this true story , i was imaging what i will do if i were the pig??
am i going to give up? am i that strong?? . At first thought, i was hmm....if i were the pig, i may just give up on life such as refuse to eat and bla bla...because i  may be eaten by human as pig is one the favourite eating pigs meat/preys upon human.if i learnt to live , the next day i may brutal killed by slaughter....hmmmm think too much already!.I believe there must be a reason why God created the pig...........

she has proved to us that no matter how life is so difficult or what is her upcoming obstacle she will face,  no one even animals should ever give up on ourselves!!!. Last but not least,every living creature should be given the chance to live.!!

Let bygones be bygones

15 years of anger and hatred inside me has had  finally begones...........Forgiveness breaks the wall of hatred and anger ,will eventually heal the pain .

The only way is to break the walls or walk through the walls

SEARCHING for A Place called forgetting self - legends

I've lived through a million dreams 

dreams are just dreams that will only remain as dreams

 some dreams are sweet but some dreams are bitter

feel breathless like drowning once i think of my bitter legends 

 all i can do is to search and search 

Searching for a place called forgetting self- legends

in order to stop bitter legends get me devour

THE ENDLESS FEAR

Whats inside my head?

Am I alive or dead?
My alter ego haunts me

'o'

Deep inside my darkest dream

Beg for mercy, cry for help but its unspeakable fear that live inside me

Screaming out in pain and endless fear

endless fear

endless fear

 endless fear

No place to hide, I've learned from all the times I tried
In this midnight hour, horrors has got me devoured

Only i can set myself free

  Only i can set myself free

free from fear 

celebrating Father day

present for daddy ........very meaning de.

dinner-ing in restaurant ???

2 newly born g-pigs

the two newly born daughter babies

site

it was the first time i went to customer's factor site (KS Chin-KRRQ-> if i no wrong) . it is kind of scary but at the same i like the feeling of explore to a new place ^.^ 

PUDING - Coconut flavour

i was looking for orange flavour but it seems like out of stock so i chose this 

easy to prepare and fun as well .At first, i plan to make it together with kak yuri in order to improve our friendship and to create more memories but things never goes according to plan so end up make this puding alone because she has lot of works . Never mind as work is more important!!

 i just need puding( the photo below) , milk and sugar ..that all

put everything and then stir for 5 minutes ....after that put it in refrigerator till it freeze

done ^.^

As Kak Yuri is going back to indonesia next month as her contract ends.Thus, i planned to celebrate her birthday .Although it seems a bit earlier ( her birthday falls on december , i don not know the actual date because she doesnt  remember). See how happy she is?

this is my first time making puding and quite messy ,i accidentally split some sugar!!  .....need to clean everything once i done .Aiya, i should have buy some fresh fruit.hmmm ..btw the taste -->'' yummy'' !!!