I tremble inside, unsure where to begin,
scared of the storm I carry within.
I know I have hurt you and made you scare,
and each regret cuts deep inside.
my whole world collapsed, my heart turned weak.
Yet through the wisdom of love I found a way,
to rise again, braver each day.
I do not know when impatience grew,
when I turned inward and away from you.
I thought I was learning to love myself more,
but instead I closed the very door
to the patience, kindness, and gentle care
that you deserve, so loyal, so rare.
The old me was too weak, too small.
I was fed up with being pushed by all.
For years I longed and wished to change,
to break the chains and rearrange.
But when I tried, it twisted wrong,
and what I became feels far too strong.
Perhaps I held it in too long,
and it exploded on you where it does not belong.
I lost my self-esteem and isolated my days.
I spent long years trying to find new ways.
I shaped myself into someone I came to hate,
yet in that hollow shell I felt strangely light of weight,
no longer haunted by the thought I had hurt a soul,
a quiet that cost more than it made me whole.
At times my anger fell on you,
though it hurt me just as it hurt you too.
I promise, my love, I will learn, I will change,
together our hearts we will rearrange.
Give me your trust, do not turn away,
we will rise again, in a brighter day.
Because of my carelessness, you became unwell,
and that is a sorrow too heavy to tell.
I never wished for you to suffer this way.
I beg for your strength with each passing day.
Please God, help her, I humbly pray.
Heal her mentally and physically without delay.
So give me time and trust in me.
I will grow into who I am meant to be.
And when my healing is finally through,
I will love you deeper, brighter, and true.
This is my vow, my endless plea,
to cherish you whole, eternally.
Through storm and trial, loss and gain,
my love for you will still remain.
With patience, kindness, and faith above,
we will walk this life in endless love.
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