Sayonara my (paternal) grandmother

No red for months especially the processing ceremony 

The need to change my shoe to blue as well

Last gift from my grandmother 

Rest in Peace my grandmother. 

Woohooo..Dong DongChiang ^.^

Chinese New Year is around the corner......hmmm...according to the Chinese astrology, This year = snake year is not a good year to most of the Chinese horoscope. My little advice, If not good, don't take it seriously. If bad things happen, just tell yourself ''tommorrow is gonna be a good day or hai yo,...if you think this year is bad luck ,then whatever bad happen will be bad luck or bad luck won't follow you forever or after all it is not that bad at all if I compare to previous incident''. I always advice myself like that. Mostly I would tell myself '' There must be a reason why it happens"

Stop the crap about the Chinese astrology....

Decorating and helping mom with house cleaning ....love to decorate and set up lighting as well as seeing CNY stuffs that are in red red things/colours......

yeah ...can see fireworks , chinese people wearing red cloths every where, listen to CNY songs, eating all day, helping daddy with prayer,.........

Early wishing
Happy 
            CHINESE NEW YEAR 2013



P/s: leave everything behind first....really dont to get distract at this very moment.

Fear to head off into uncharted waters

FEAR FEAR  FEAR

Once stop going forward , the devil gets the chance to catch me. In addition, My soul is getting weaker until not dare to make a first step. I'm letting THE DEVIL OF FEAR to tie me up me from taking a first step. I know once I take a first step , I would be free from the devil. Undeniable that I'm good at escaping problems.After years of trying to conger my fear so that I would be brave enough to drive and facing other things as well. It is just hard for me to move the first step. , First move/First Step is always hard to take and Fear is always hard.

A note/ reminder to myself

'' Fear won't get you where you want to go. I

t's not easy to head off into uncharted waters, but every journey starts with a first step. Fear will keep you from taking that first step, from untying the boat from the dock. Fear will also keep you from making new discoveries. Don't let fear keep you tied up, set sail and see what God has planned for you.''

This year 2013 resolution is

HAPPINESS

simple right?.I don't want to write much on this resolution. There are a lots of ways to gain happiness. I'll try my very best to be happy throughout this year.

When heaven burns

At this moment, my mind occupies with the script of a Hong Kong's drama named When Heaven Burns. After I watched a few episodes, I can't keep myself not to watch another episode. Frankly speaking, I do enjoy watching this drama not because of cannibalization upon a human but the storyline of this drama. I want to give a round of applause to all the actors and actresses for their professional in acting.

Casts

Sheh Sze Man as Yan
Lam Bo Yee as Joe
Mosses Chan as Hak zai
Kenny Wong as Bonnie
Maggie Shu as Emma


Brief summary 

The story starts after the 3 young boys (Hak Zai/Angus, Joe, Bonnie) killed and ate their friend, Ka Ming.Yan is the manager of the band, who unites them and dated one of the them, Ka Ming. The boys went on mountaineering trip .Say to sad, They stranded in a mountaineering trip for roughly 5 days or 10 days or 20 days without any food and drink.They starved and cold for days that cause them unable to think clearly . When people lose it rational in thinking, people tend to follow the lead because some doesn't dare to act as they know it is against the human's right. As Bonnie is the one, who take the lead .During that time, Bonnie was sick and hungry so end up cutting Ka Ming, who was laying on the floor of  the camp while Joe was outside persuading Hak Zak to eat Ka Ming by saying Ka Ming already die .After that both of them joined Bonnie in killing and eating. They ate one of Ka Ming leg and then kept the rest for the next day. The next day, Joe chopped Ka Ming's head so that they could eat their friend without fear. Good news, They survived but end up living in full of guilt for killing their best friend and lying about how did he die. Joe told Hak Zai to make a falsified report to the police by saying Ka Ming went down alone to get help and then they get separated.  They all change and disconnect with each others for 18 years in order to forget everything had happened.

 Hak zai becomes greedy for money and selfish. He learnt that one must have the power to protect oneself. Marrying a rich woman, Emma to get the heritage  but eventually he gave up everything for the sake of Yan (his ex-girlfriend before dating Ka Ming . He still has feeling toward her so do others). After he resigned and divorced, He worked as a Guitarist in a bar.

As for Ronnie, he can be considered the happiest one among them. He lost some of his memories due to amnesia. He retired and went back to Hong Kong and got in touch with others. He kept trying to dig his past. Once he remembered everything, he confessed his criminal act to the police.

Down to Joe now, He was trying to repent for his inhuman action for killing and eating by working as a social worker that strike justice for labor for 18 years .He didn't even dare to eat meat because it reminded him about the incident. There was ups and downs in his life, Joe felt his hard work never get appreciated which leads  him to feel wasted her life for nothing .He tried to gain back everything from working in an investment company.

Continue the storyline with Yan. After 16 years, The head of crime found the bones of Ka Ming and asking Yan to identify the body of Ka MIng.At the beginning , she agreed but refused after he stabbed Hak Zai ( quickly sent him to the nearest hospital) and didn't them to go prison. Hazel was in the middle of losing herself and live in anger after knowing the truth. Later on, she found herself. She started to accept the fact that human is selfish. After an incident, she realizes that she has changed , regret for her lately behavior by letting anger conger her. In addition, She forgives them as she knows it is useless for blaming. Furthermore, she understands the reason for hurting someone they don't want to hurt.

They all unite as a band for the very last time and went separate ways the next day. Before ending, Hak Zai asked hazel ''Are we going to meet again? '' She replied ''never meet again but will remain as a friend forever''. On the way to the airport , she walks through a road and sees her and Ka Ming's shadow on the road arguing and then Ka Ming says loudly '' if you turn back then I won't go to the mountaineering trip'' .She kept telling her shadow to turn back. In her imagination , young she turns back. What if he didn't go for mountaineering trip, Everything won't be same.At that moment, She was very happy and then realizes that is just an imaginary. This drama ends with she goes to the mountaineering alone.

What comes around goes around

Ka Ming ends up being alone and guilty for the rest of his life.

Ronnie turns bind for the remainder of his life.

Last but not least, Joe involved in financial fraud and love betrayer . He was hit by a truck when he's trying to save a young boy's life ( the boy he saved has the same name with Ka Ming).

My craps 

From this drama, I learned that the feeling of guilt is the greater pain then losing valuable thing or hatred .Guilt may follow the rest of your life. On the other hand, Losing valuable things are much easier to forget once found a replacement. That is way, human tends to find a way to make themselves feel better such as repent , refused to remember what had happened , doing charity, covering the truth by telling endless lie, keep on doing the wrong things, cover up his mistake by blaming , trying to manipulate others. If not , the feeling of guilt will come and play its role . Sometimes, getting forgiveness would reduce the guilt . Even getting punished , some people still can't forgive themselves and keep on living in feeling guilty. If a person can't repent/forgive himself, he would live in the prison of guilt. I used to torture myself in order myself feel better . Not going to share how I torture myself . In conclusion, feeling of guilt is the most torturing punishment in life.

People who are getting hurt. In better words to describe, I would use victim. In this drama, Yan is the one who is hurt for losing her bf and others suffers for the cannibalization act upon Ka Ming. People keep saying forgetting and forgiving is the only ways to release soul from hell. But how many people in this earth able to do so .Someone may end up revenge. People who get hurt or people who hurt may learn a lesson from an incident and change. Some may cut all the possible connections so that the hurt will be minimized .Some may become better or worse person .It is always a choice. People are forced to change because of an incident or certain reason .

'' Dear God, if you want me to love my enemies , please stop them from connecting me''

People using various method to forget things that had happened such as watching movies, drinking, reading , shopping and etc. This is a good way of escaping from remembering back .I used to forget by watching movies but it's just temporary so I tries others method like shopping and drinking but it just useless because it just can stand for a short period. Never let your anger conger you , if not you would end up suffering. Never lose hope because of an anger, people will never satisfy nor release after revenge instead people who live in a life of anger and revenge may end up losing a lot of valuable things in life. In addition, may end up living in a self-prison of sadness.

P/s : Better don't do something that is against human's law. Human should never look back instead of moving forward. Past is memory but not to ignore or escape.

Wish and Switch

''Wish and Switch''. I do enjoy watching this drama because it is hilarious or comedy drama. After episode 15, it's not longer comedy but mushy-mushy and quite draggy. Indeed, I feel like wanting to just jump to last eps .Yet, I still manage to watch all the eps because I watched with mom. Nowadays, I really can't stand with TVB's drama ...

Cast : Myolie Wu as Suk Heung , Selena Li as Yuek Hoi ,Johnson Li as Ka Yan,Vincent Wong




It's about a trade website. A brief explanation, A website that can get what you wish for but you have to trade something requested by the website. Quite good and fun for having this kind of website ? Only if there is no trade require . For me, it is like getting a loan from shark loan

In this drama, Suk Heung gets to know the existence of the website in one of the public library's computers. She soon gets addicted to it. When Suk Heung suspects her husband is having an affair so she goes to Yuek Hoi to ask her a favor. Then, both of them make a wish to switch their life. They try to cancel  off the wish once they realize what they have done for the drunken night. Say to say, the public library has closed for a month. Consequently, they have to play their role until the public library reopen .Their friendship breaks apart after Suk Heung realizes that Yuek Hoi's secret of having contracted marriage.She is angry and nearly spoilt her marriage by writing a letter to Yuek Hoi's mother-in-law. Luckily, she manages to cover up the lies. In addition , Things start to get worse when Rocky's death, Yuek Hoi is sad and get drunk . Ka Yan and Yuek Hoi nearly has one night stand. After Yuek Hoi knows the causes of  Rocky death , she starts to plan for revenge by making Suk Heung jealous. On the other hand, Suk Heung wants to get her hubby back as she thought Yuek Hoi is having a one night stand with her hubby. In fact , they didn't nothing that night. Around episode 15 , they switch back and this drama becomes sad story



 In the end, She gets killed (trade) because she wishes his hubby becomes the way he used to be. It can be considered a happy ending even though Suk Heung dies because everyone become good and responsible.I just don't like a twin who looks exactly like Suk Heung appears in the ending. It's just not make any sense ..Only if ka Yan had made a wish to revive her back but he didn't. Is it necessary? hmmmm is wondering why needs to recycle the actress? .It reminds me of other drama, ''The confidant''...hmmm,it is totally a failure drama. Keep recycle the villain actors and actress .Honestly,damn boring (bad guys lose and make a comeback and lose again and come back again and again. The worst is the bad guys didn't get punished for keeping committing crimes so that they can make a comeback).Really waste time for watching that drama.If choosing not to follow the history but at least make it enjoy to watch.The storyline is suck but the actor and actress are good.
Back to the drama, I love what she says to her family and friend that the trade website is an evil website. People should never depend on that , never give up , and bla bla......

Who knows the existence of the website : Suk Heung, Yuek Hoi, Ka Yan , Suk Heung's brother.
Only who got electric shock is able to see and trade with the web site : Suk Heung, Ka Yan , Suk Heung's brother. (Can't speak out unless accidentally hear it or get electric shock by the computer's socket)

Trade:

Suk hueng's trade
1.Wish -Her hubby gets his job back and she wins a (forget already) exchange of (requested by the website) her favourite orange flavour sweet.That means, she is not longer able to eat.

2. Wish - her brother gets into a famous school , her friend (Yuek Hoi) and her hubby have a great wedding anniversary celebration, Her nephew gets to meet her father and her husband gets promoted (if i no wrong) exchange of adding kgs (gains weight)

3. Wish - to cancel his hubby wishes /wants her hubby to be back to it used to be, an exchange of her life

Suk hueng and Yuek Hoi
1. Wish to exchange the life with each other so that Yuek Hoi can help to get Suk Heung's huband backs. Exchange of (I forget already)

2. Cancel the exchange life


Ka Yan's trade

1. Wish - to be success exchange of  20 years age that means he will be around 50 .

Suk Heung's old brother

1. Wish price decreases or free some sort really can't recall, an exchange of losing her manly voice
2. Wish SUk Heung and Ka Yan happy ever after exchange of ( I x remember) and cancel later on
3.  Wish the baby recovers from the heart attack, an exchange of losing a precious thing(his first kiss)
4. Wish to cancel the trade that Ka Yan makes, the exchange of getting hit by a car( I think so but don't know whether he accepts or not as it didn't tell us)

Hanada Shonen-si

my Favorite horror yet humor anime.i got to know this anime through tvbs Chanel , it's translated to Cantonese   . Got stunned by this anime ...really damn cute. i have been looking for this anime on the net. Without the title name , it kind of hard to search but luckily i got it by typing it's character(learn for my bro)  . thx to this website ->http://fischer.hosting.paran.com/comics/Isshiki/hanada-e.htm

It about a 9 year old boy, Hanada Ichiro ,who is very active on playing tricks ...i may describe him as naughty.


this is how he looks before become bald





The story starts with getting hit by a truck while cycling (if i not wrong). Consequences from meeting an accident lead him to sewed up with 9 stitches on his beck of his head  .



From that day onward . he has the ability to talk to ghosts. normally, ghosts wont hurt him just needs his help to realize their wish when there living in physical world.

he is damn cute


sources : http://hanadashonen-shifanssite.blogspot.com/

Kimi ni Todoke

Romance movie or series never really my favourite. I prefer watching sport and horror rather than mushy-mushy .Sometimes, I would watch but normally skip most of the romance parts.At first , i thought it is a ghost Anime when i roughly read it's synopsis at animedreaming ...by leaving out a word ''resembles. 

 But After watched 1st episode with my bro ( he dislike to what horror,i forced him to watched . luckily, he enjoyed) , this Anime,  Kimi ni todoke really attract me to watch but a bit of dragging in season 2 but it is necessary for that.Funny, touching,, angry, ....lots of emotion when wathcing it but mostly funny...

 This Amine, '''From you to me'' revolves friendship, love, and ,unrequited love

Hehehe i have a full eps (season 2 and 3) in my hard disk.Thank to my bro.

From you to me season 1 

 

Kuronuma Sawako is the main character.This series begins at her age of 15 years old.

She doesn't has friend until she turned 15 years old. Thanks to Kazehaya Shouta(transfer to her school),who is popular among the school. He becomes her idol because of lively,friendly and etc behaviour .

.....will see his smiling face ...in all episode ...should be every moment when the camera hit him 

They first meet is at the entrance ceremony, when kaze asked her for direction. he's the first person who thank and smile happily .

 I think he started to fall for her after he sees her smiling face and her attitude. ( do everything by her own and ......

Her classmate and people around her scared and stunned by her looks. because of her looks which resembles of a character(The ring) named Sadako, long and dark hair. Thing gets worst after her only friend in her classmate called her  ''Sadako'' in primary school.From that onward, rumours about her name started to spread by saying she has six sense named Sadako.No one longer  remember her real name.  No body dares to get near her. She try all her best to mix but she is very shy and  once people see her ,they would just run away .She plays games(indoor or outdoors) with herself because no one dares to play with her because she looks like a ghost. 

trying to say good morning to people at around her but she's afraid to look at them Thus, lower her head while saying hello to them but lead them to get frightened

 During the courage test event, Sawako who acts as ghost to scared people away in a forest( her classmates, Yano Ayane and Yoshida Chizuru  called her to act). Kaze went to the forest and was frightened with her look but he is able to clam down and sat with her. He advised her to convey her feeling to others and tell them she doesnt have supernatural power.In the middle of the conversation,  Yano Ayane and Yoshida Chizuru  showed up and praise her and treat her drink. 

Her life starts to change, when the changing place for every sem. No one dare to sit beside her because people who sit beside her will meet accident, bad luck and bad result.She get number 3 that means she will be sitting at left side near window. Everyone in the class is wishing they wont be sitting with her. But Kaze, who volunteer ask for exchanging his number with person who holding number 19 in order to sit beside her. Followed by Yano Ayane(sit in front)  and Yoshida Chizuru (sit next to yano after Ryu, sit behind Sawako)

become best friend after the rumour......and after they find out she is innocent and bla bla....love to watch them three..) 

She starts to be accepted by her classmate after Kaze helps........

As Kaze is popular among the girls and boys that lead to jealousy around the girls 

Her one of the rival(bad) Kurumi

Love to see , Kaze and Sawako in season 1 ...they look funny ...especially after sawako find out that she has a different feeling toward Kaze .After that she started to feel never and .........Both of them is very shy person. lot of blushing .........

Kaze mad and shy after .........he doesnt dare to look at her  for too long...so funny

 when he's being told by Kurumi that Sawako loves Ryu( unrequited love toward Chi) and brought Kaze to the place where ryu and Sawako at. Love the moment ,when Kaze takes Sawako away and then ask her whether she likes Ryu ....she replied yes but not that kind of  romantic love.......he feel relief..........

This season end with Sawako and Kaze went out together during new year (31 dec which is Sawako's birthday) planned by her friends.

Season 1 is more funnier that season 2 .my bro and i laugh almost every episode of season 1. Can see alot of funny expression of sawako .i love the changing her image after she met her rival Kurumi. She even asks her about about it........they try to imaging ..... 

Sequel of  the From you to me, more to love between Kaze and Sawako. and the unrequited love between Chi and Ryu. love to see chi and ryu.. 

She met new friends and admire. Not bad right?. Sawako not longer sitting between her friends, Kaze, Ryu, Chi, Ayane..... with the changing place system.End up , new student , miura sitting next to her . he wants to see her smile but her simile seems look awkward, werid,glommy....   so he keeps saying hello to her using different expression in order to get the perfect smiling....so funny.  He even become her teacher by teaching on how on smile.......

In the end of season 2 , Kaze fall to the trapped of Ayane by calling he to admit his love for Sawako and tell all the everyone that he is his bf.........They went out date.

Kak Kakak Yuri

Misss kak Yuri so much ....i think she called me last couple of months but i didint answer because she promised me to miss call but not to answer....Just want to make sure she arrives home safetly...really miss her so much .She always protect me and so do i .I really miss the days ,like helping her on house chores ; weeding garden & watering trees morning and evening , washing dirty plates, sometimes wiped the watery plates and then put all plates into rack accordingly while she washed all dirty plates,chatting with her when she was washing tons of cloths and reading the news from newspapers to her while she was ironing cloths at night, feeding her, eating dinner with her and sleeping at her room when she was doing ironing .............i always feel safe and comfortable when she's around me.we talked about everything but i never really share most of my stories because i scared she would help me ...really dont want to get her into trouble.we met again after 2 months after moving out , i nearly cried out really want to hug her.
indeed, i already treat her as a family and she treats me like her daughter.  it proves, that race , religion and gap of age are never really a problem unless you allow it.

To those anti- indo,i wish to tell you guys that not all indo is bad . Please RESPECT . stop discriminate toward MAID !!! they are human as well. I don feel weird being close with an indo so stop talking behind her back ......not all indo are bad, thief what so ever ......your guys met several indo who are thief and then concluded all are thief  ...so stop discriminate/bias....i hate the ways you guys treat her ....

Oh ya,...i dont think i wrong , i just want her to stand up and stop being bullied,  .....i want her to understand the labour law........so stop saying me, '' Give Bad INFLUENCE to her. in fact , i got the intention to take he with me...cause i really dislike her job but i cannot even afford .all i can do were brought medicine ( yoko2 and other brands) & treat her dinner( mostly calling mcd service)  .luckily , she not longer work and back to indo.....

Lastly  , i would like to thank my Lord for the blessing and endless protection. In addition, thank for sending me, Kak Yuri without her i dont know how to gone through....... It's been a tough journey i gone through.