Kak Kakak Yuri

Misss kak Yuri so much ....i think she called me last couple of months but i didint answer because she promised me to miss call but not to answer....Just want to make sure she arrives home safetly...really miss her so much .She always protect me and so do i .I really miss the days ,like helping her on house chores ; weeding garden & watering trees morning and evening , washing dirty plates, sometimes wiped the watery plates and then put all plates into rack accordingly while she washed all dirty plates,chatting with her when she was washing tons of cloths and reading the news from newspapers to her while she was ironing cloths at night, feeding her, eating dinner with her and sleeping at her room when she was doing ironing .............i always feel safe and comfortable when she's around me.we talked about everything but i never really share most of my stories because i scared she would help me ...really dont want to get her into trouble.we met again after 2 months after moving out , i nearly cried out really want to hug her.
indeed, i already treat her as a family and she treats me like her daughter.  it proves, that race , religion and gap of age are never really a problem unless you allow it.

To those anti- indo,i wish to tell you guys that not all indo is bad . Please RESPECT . stop discriminate toward MAID !!! they are human as well. I don feel weird being close with an indo so stop talking behind her back ......not all indo are bad, thief what so ever ......your guys met several indo who are thief and then concluded all are thief  ...so stop discriminate/bias....i hate the ways you guys treat her ....

Oh ya,...i dont think i wrong , i just want her to stand up and stop being bullied,  .....i want her to understand the labour law........so stop saying me, '' Give Bad INFLUENCE to her. in fact , i got the intention to take he with me...cause i really dislike her job but i cannot even afford .all i can do were brought medicine ( yoko2 and other brands) & treat her dinner( mostly calling mcd service)  .luckily , she not longer work and back to indo.....

Lastly  , i would like to thank my Lord for the blessing and endless protection. In addition, thank for sending me, Kak Yuri without her i dont know how to gone through....... It's been a tough journey i gone through.

last working day -> officially

It was my last day of working at BTM for more than a year

Are you going to ask me '' do you feel a little bit sentimental for leaving?  

hmmm....if i say no then i must be heartless. 

before leaving , i tried to do all my work perfectly but it's lot of work so ending up, only done 98% of my work.

After days and weeks of having peaceful mind, i realize that it's worthless for holding onto something that is impossible.Life is short ,i just want to experience something different from what i have been encountered. I'm trying to start creating new or to beautify my life that i tend to neglect .

oh ya, before i left the company, i bought thx and goodbye present to my colleagues and bosses. some of my friends , keep asking me why? ....for me it is an appreciation for they have done for me...... love your hater, enemy ,............

i will always treasure every memories i'd gone through ; no matter bitter or sweet. If i preferred to keep the sweet and delete all the bitter memories then i would never treasure or learn a great lesson from it  .Candidly, i just want to balance between bitter and sweet .

Mending

trying to mend a cloth but i'm not good in mending ......!! thus, i have make myself clear, let it be and never spoilt it as it need to mend especially person like me not good in mending may end up spoiling the quality of the cloth..........Someday, i would know how to mend perfectly without other interupt or help!!!

You ^.^ = > reminiscence

With you , it 's different..... different..... different ....You are the only one.....i've never encounter this kind of ......different  before!!!!.......but you changed it or i changed it? or both of us .....causing it to be .....now it's REMINISCENCE

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Appreciate

Most people never appreciate what they have until someday they start to lose it.when you have everything you want you would tend to have the kind of a thought or feeling that it wont leave you and would stay with you forever .oh ya, cant deny that temptation is hard to resist.that is way , second chance comes to play it roles .most human will only regret when they start losing it and then begging for mercy .some people just give second chance because they scare to lose it's comfort zone/a shoulder to cry on or start over again.there is no such weak people only if they choose to become.it always depend on one's mentality.losing does hurt but it would be sour someday.some may regret by suicide or self torture if they fail to get it back.it is called one of the journey of the path of life

BYE kak yuri

After 3 years working in Malaysia ,...finally she back to Indonesia

hmmmm i have been waiting for her to call me( she promises to call me once she arrives home) but yet i'm still waiting

hmmm,...wondering whether she forgets me already?

....it doesnt really matter anymore ...as long as she is happy and safe ,it already sufficient

yesteryear Nightmare by chasing unchaseable memory

i asked mr time a few question '' can you go back to 1 year ago??''
he answered '' why ? tell me why you want to go back ??? do you really miss those days??''
i replied '' some of it ....and ..i...i..i..just want to appreciate those days .............i'm full of regret and guilty''
he told me '' you should face it or correct it, not keep asking me of a favor that it is impossible''
he continued his speech '' by the way , i'm not time traveller ...even i manage to move my  clock's wheels to move backward ...do you think you wont do the same mistake or same things??'''



Two invisible boxes

I try to hide two invisible boxes. one is emptiness and the other is sadness .Have been trying to hide the boxes but the more I want to hide the more visible it becomes .i use all my effort to vanish the two invisible boxes by looking up to my 100 plus of keys .Sorry to know that non of the keys that are able to varnish the 2 boxes .

Celebrating friends' birthday at newway from 7:30 to around 00:00

Only realize that here got poker and majung cards...i didnt bet.... only took the picture of it as it because i was quite amaze. 

Majong Card

Poker card